'Heal the World'

I'm listening to the MIDI song titled 'Heal the World' sent by Rebecca. The lyrics are very long, yet very meaningful if we take it into perspective. In this song, it describes the struggles that people go through during their tough times. Like everyone else, I'm also a person with my own struggles.

Listening to this song makes me feel sad coz it makes me think how sad people in this world can be. As a result, many begin to chase after things which they think would satisfy their unhappiness or boredom; only to discover that it soon becomes an endless chase for things which only bring temporary satisfaction. Or maybe I should refer to it as temporary 'distraction'. Afterall, some indulge themselves in drunkedness, so as to forget their problems. Others eat a lot with the hope of easing themselves from their stresses of life.

How do we find fulfilment & satisfaction in life? For those who do not believe in any religion, they may turn to a lifestyle of ultimate freedom... afterall, life is short, so why should they hinder themselves from complete enjoyment of anything that pleases them?

How about those who believe in a God? Some go to their god(s) because they seek safety, health, possessions, a career to be desired, etc. I don't know a lot about all these religions to add on any further. Yet it seems clear that many (even in their young teenage years) are seeking after a meaning in life.

How about Christians? Well, we believe in seeking out our answers through God's Word (i.e. the Holy Bible). But how often has it come to mind (especially when feeling depressed or lonely) that a book simply doesn't seem enough? It is a book that is supposed to give life (not as in staying alive & breathing), but how many actually find 'life' in this book? Maybe sometimes... but there are times when we wonder why God left us a book to read & expect something to happen from black & white printed words. I don't know about others, but I do struggle with that.

As a Christians, we are told to be the 'light' to the world. But how often do we struggle to keep 'aflame'? Even for a fire to stay aflame, it needs oxygen & a igniting object (e.g. oil, kerosene, etc). So in our case, what are our catalysts that allow to stay aflame? The Word of God? Well, that's true... yet how come it doesn't always work? Is it because of hearts are not right? But when will our hearts to be right enough? It doesn't seem to be something that can be measured. In fact, it sounds kind of vague to me...

Oh well, I'm occasionally in quite a depressive mood about things. Where is the spark in my life? Where can I find my required catalysts for the spark? On days when I think that I sin more than usual, well... that's fair enough... maybe God isn't happy to answer my prayers or sooth my unhappiness. What about those days when I make a diligent effort to refrain from the number of sinful occurances in that day? Do I feel better or feel that God's presence is with me? Not so... In fact, it seems that emotions can sometimes play tricks on us. Yet, as humans, we can't disregard emotion, coz that's what makes us human.

You see, that's the whole point - trying to be more Christlike, while struggling in our human nature... coz we are human! How to do so? Just pray & sin less? And even if we do that, does that mean that things would get better for us? But that doesn't make us less human, right? So how can we ever escape from this struggle? Well, my answer is that we can't... ever. We are stuck being human, yet striving to imitate a Christlike behaviour. Definitely not an easy task. In fact, I don't we will ever reach accomplishment of this task, coz its never possible to be on par with the Almighty. So how? I really don't know... just continue 'swimming'... just like fishes do... swim until their time is up...

Well, until I find another revelation to this issue, I'll just have to stick to this unhappiness for now...