My Testimony

Before I met Christ

It is indeed a blessing that I was born into a Christian family. My parents became Christians before they got married and I remembered that they would pray with me and read Bible stories to me from a children’s Bible. But does merely knowing a few stories from the Bible make me a Christian? No, I had to discover Christ for myself. However, at that young age, it didn’t occur to me that living as a Christian means more than just saying grace before meals, reading the Bible once in a while and praying before I sleep.

How I realized my need for Christ

When I was a child, I didn’t care much about how I lived my life; after all, I knew that my parents would look after me, no matter what happens. I was reliant on them to provide for my needs and wants. But as I grew older and entered into secondary school, I realized that my parents cannot be around for me all the time; I had to learn to fend for myself. Over time, I learnt to be strong and determined at what I set myself to do. That worked for a few years, relying a lot on myself, even though I knew that I should also pray and commit things to God.

The turning point came when I entered junior college. Looking back, I knew that it was God’s will that I was posted to Saint Andrew’s Junior College. But I didn’t know it then. As I struggled through JC, I realized that it became more and more difficult to live life relying largely on my own strength. I found it increasingly difficult to handle my subjects and I couldn’t find any friends that I could click with. With my failing grades and no friends to turn to, I soon found myself getting into depression more and more frequently. Worse still, I started going deeper into sexual sin. As the days went on, I was just so lost and didn’t know what to do.

How I became a Christian

One day, as I was on my way towards the school gate to head home after school, I passed by this lecture theatre where I heard singing coming out from inside. I didn’t know why, but I suddenly stopped walking and just stood there, frozen at that spot.

Then I recognized that it was the song ‘There Is None Like You’… and when I heard the chorus, my heart just softened and I started to cry, with tears rolling down my cheeks. I had heard worship songs in church before, but somehow this time it felt different. I stood there hesitant about whether I should go inside the lecture theatre, but the prompting grew stronger and stronger, until I decided to go in.

From that moment onwards, I realized that I had encountered Christ personally in my heart. I couldn’t deny it… for He took me in, despite my failures, sin and shame. I joined the Saints For Christ (Christian fellowship group) and my life as a Christian took a turn for the better. I am still not perfect and struggle with the pain and issues of life, but despite my failures, I still remembered that God did come for me at my time of need. He knows what I am going through, even when I am clueless about what in the world is going on at different stages of my life.

I chose to believe that Christ could reach into my life and work within me. And He surprised me with much more – a vision of His hand reaching down to take hold of my hand. I still remember that my eyes were closed, but I was not asleep when that happened in a short 20 seconds or so. And His words spoke clearly, “Do not be afraid of how hard you fall, or how many times you fall… for I will catch you.”

What being a Christian means to me

Being a Christian means that my life has to be different from people around who do not yet know Christ. It means submission. It means choosing to love, to embrace, to let go. It means to believe, to trust, to surrender. Not the good that I do, but the good that God works in and through me.

Believe me, life doesn’t become a bed of roses when I chose to commit my life to Christ… at times, I still falter… but at times, I still do feel His peace and comfort when times seem darkest. Once the dark clouds have passed, we would often see more clearly.

Invitation to discuss further on salvation

Dear friend, it is possible that life throws so many challenges at us, that we just feel so overwhelmed. Sometimes, we may even feel that we have lost the battle and just don’t know what to do. We don’t know… but God knows… and He watches from above, each and every moment. Christ came to save mankind from all our sin and shame. He came for me… and I believe that the fact that you are listening to my testimony, is clear that Christ is also calling out to you. Would you be willing to respond and allow me to pray with you?

To God be the glory…