The Heart to Change

Okay, this is nothing new to anybody – that being human beings, we are not perfect, especially when it comes to spiritual morals & disciplines. I think many a times when we sin, or have wondered far away from God; it may seem all too difficult to change. But I have decided to take heart in the fact that if we have the heart to change, God can work in us. It is when we keep on sinning, until we become immune to guilt & prompting from the Holy Spirit, that we ought to take a step back & reflect on how we live our lives.

Jonathan Lee needed someone to assist with the Overhead Projector (OHP) for Youth Ministry worship today, so I volunteered to help out. Before the worship session ended, Pastor Edwin came forward & kindly requested for the chorus of the last song be played, as he encouraged all the youths to quietly meditate on the lyrics. I closed my eyes to pray before everyone started to sing. I quietly spoke to God from my heart; about my worries & all… when suddenly, I felt like there was this firm, still yet soundless voice that spoken very briefly to me. And the sentence that was spoken was, “What makes you think I wouldn’t guide you through?”

It was a strange feeling, coz those words somehow spoke to my mind & heart at the same time. Hmm… & I felt comforted for that brief moment. I knew that God was still watching over everyone & all that’s happening in this world. We just have to keep on trusting that He will do what’s best.

As the music played, I quietly reflected on the lyrics of that song until tears began to form in my eyes. I felt a brief touch from the Holy Spirit & my heart just melted away to receive this overwhelming quietness & peace.

Reaching For You

Chorus:
And I stand here before You
In wide open wonder
Amazed, at the glory of You
The power of Heaven
Revealing Your purpose in me
As I’m reaching for You

Seriously speaking these words can be very ‘cheem’ to understand & interpret. In fact, I would it find it very difficult to even try explaining this chorus, sentence by sentence. No kidding… it can be quite ‘cheem’! But what I knew was that I felt a touch from God while looking at the words… & that is enough to confirm that God is still watching over & taking care of me.

So I’ll just cling onto the hope in the faith that is unseen… trusting God to work out a positive change & improvement in me, as I reach for Him & hold onto my heart to change for the better… Praise the Lord!