'Do My Best' Vs 'To Succeed'

Mr Peter Lim shared with me that he really admired Laurie (my SIM friend who recommended me this job at his company) because she is very determined & resilient. He needs someone with this level of drive & commitment in his company.

He shared that some time ago, Laurie's company CEO suddenly quit, leaving the company stranded with a boss, for whatever reason, I don't know. But Laurie didn't leave the company, but struggled through all the customers' complaints & mess in the company. I'm not sure if the company has got a CEO now, but I guess so... & I'm really proud to know & have a friend like Laurie. In fact, I was so awed when I heard Peter Lim share this & my heart felt warm to have worked with such a project group mate during my university days at SIM.

But the question comes back to me - Am I such a person? Am I a person who is willing to go all out to succeed in my job? Or am I someone who is contented with having a good job, with reasonable pay & prospects... just do my best in this job & not have any or much ambition to really SUCCEED in this company or industry that I'm working in?

Suddenly, it seemed to me that 'Success' had become a strange word to me. I guess that's the difference between a person who knows what he or she want & has the ambition & HUNGER to become better than where he or she currently is. Maybe in a school context, it's like a school teacher who aspires to become a principal in a short matter of years... or maybe even to get a high ranking position working at MOE itself... or something like that.

Maybe I don't feel this way now, coz I haven't yet found what I hope to become or do as a career. Or perhaps I'm just easily contented with a good job, reasonable pay to provide for myself & my family, having a balanced lifestyle of work, family & church, etc. I don't know... coz at present, I don't have any dreams for myself in terms of my career... just hope to get a good job, get married & settle down with a home of my own... of coz, with my wife & kids.

Is this naive? I don't know... but I can't just anyhow think up some ambition just like that... dreams & aspirations have to come from our heart... not just create one, because we currently do not have one... I don't know... I'm so lost...