Just like a TREE…

For the past two days I have been intensely struggling with my problems in life. Finally, I decided that I had enough… & told God that I can’t do it anymore… I just can’t do it… I’m just too tired to struggle anymore… I just don’t know what to do about myself… I have no more strength to go on… Please… Please… You have to help me… I can’t do it myself anymore…

I’m not going to type down all my problems, coz I’m just so sick of them. I have been reduced to the smallest ever possible so far in all my 25 years of my life. Whatever that I have now is because God gave me parents to provide for me. I’m regarded as nothing in the eyes of society & own nothing, not even a single cent to my name. Nothing belongs to me.

Suddenly this thought came to me… I feel just like a tree rooted where I am, with no where to go, except when I get cut down or blown over by a very strong wind. Just look at any tree & you’ll see that it has no where to go & can do nothing, except depend on rain to fall & the sun to shine for survival. Even if the woodcutter comes to cut it down or a typhoon comes to blow it down, it has no where to go.

I feel just like a tree… just rooted where I am, owning nothing & absolutely at the mercy of the weather conditions around me. I have no control over anything & I have no resources, except this breath of life that God gave me that keeps me alive till this day. I’m completely at His mercy…

I think this is what God wants us (especially me) to understand, that we can do nothing, absolutely nothing, without Him. Of course, by this, I’m referring to good things. It is when we really fall down on our knees, cry out to God & finally release & give up everything to Him, can we know that whatever good happens, is because of Him. And it will be to His glory, not ours.

I will trust You, Lord. I’m like a tree planted by streams of living water. May You fill me to overflowing, & all Man will know that it is You. I’m saved by the blood of Jesus Christ, Your Son. Amen.