It's been AGES!

Yeah, it's been ages since I last typed a Blog entry. Life is just becoming so busy and I have become more worn out. Lifestyle is changing and too many things to be worried about. Really glad to know that Heaven will be a much MUCH peaceful place! Though I am not in a hurry to get there yet, till Jesus comes again or my time on Earth is up, whichever is sooner... Argh, sounds like the statement typical of funding disbursement! Oh no! Job hazard! Hahahaha! =)

Seriously, I haven't blogged for more than 3 months (the longest so far in my 2 years of blogging) and honestly, it's just so difficult to get back to typing my occasional reflections in my Blog. There is just so much strong inertia that prevents me from getting back to my reflective mood at the end of the day. In fact, it's really hard for me to say this, but sometimes I would rather brood about my unhappiness than reflect, pray and think of something constructive to do about it. Not to the extent of wallowing in self pity, but just feeling moody and with little interest in many things... even sleep, believe it or not!

Frankly, I didn't want to start typing again. Blogging would be much easier if it were a video camera following me around in my life, instead of me having to sit down and type at the end of a tiring day. But on the other hand, being reflective helps me to think... and get in touch with the 'Matthew' deep down inside of me. Oh well, here we go... back to blogging... try to keep it up once in awhile...