Friday, February 10, 2006

Having a Crush in a Dream?

I had this very strange dream last night. It’s about this girl from my church, which I never had a crush on, but don’t know why dreamt that we both had a crush on each other in my dream.

The scene of the dream was at this beach, where many of our church friends were gathered. Maybe it was some beach party or a chalet retreat. But I didn’t really notice any of them though, except for this girl & her boyfriend… & a few of us went swimming at the beach.

Suddenly this huge tall object (I think it’s a pillar or large tree trunk) dropped & was about to fall upon me! I didn’t have time to react, coz it happened so fast, but thankfully this girl was nearby & quickly pushed me away.

I was very thankful for her help, but thinking about it, I’m not sure if that triggered the subconscious response that made me suddenly start having a crush on her in my dream.

Anyway, I was still in shock about that falling object that nearly crushed me, while she helped me out of the beach & towards a nearby shed to recover. Maybe it’s also because of the atmosphere inside the shed, coz it was dimly lighted & we were alone…

We started casually talking & after awhile, I don’t know why I suddenly leaned over to kiss her! Thinking about it now (when I’m awake), I still can’t figure out why I dreamt of that. I had never had a crush on her before, but why did that happen in the dream? It’s confusing…

It was very strange, coz she didn’t resist (maybe I’m a good kisser, I don’t know) & we ended up french kissing for awhile… which I remembered was very nice… but we suddenly stopped because we heard someone approaching.

It was her boyfriend… He came in looking for his girlfriend & also to find out how I was… but it’s odd that he didn’t assume that anything wrong had happened between his girlfriend & me. Maybe coz he trusted that we would not do anything wrong...

He knew about what happened at the beach & after noticing that I was alright, he asked what we are both doing in this shed. He was a friend to me, so I couldn’t lie to him… so I slowly & cautiously told him that she had helped me here to rest, but we accidentally ended up kissing a little bit.

He flew into a rage & started shouting & pointing a finger at me… before scolding & yelling at his girlfriend. I have never seen him so angry before. I was shocked at the extent of his fury, but I was guilty yet didn’t know why I did that. I guess sometimes it’s really the atmosphere & surroundings that play a part.

She looked remorseful, but I could tell that she enjoyed that moment too, just like I did… though it only lasted a few seconds. But it was wrong & we knew we shouldn’t have done that. Angrily, he stooped out of the place… & I was woken up by this phone call…

I still can’t figure out why this dream happened. Maybe it’s because she is a gentle & soft-spoken girl, tender-hearted & I always enjoy chatting with her, once in awhile, whenever we came across each other at church. It’s more of the girl’s personality that appeals to me, I guess… not necessary her specifically.

Anyway, it’s just a dream. She’s happily attached & I’m also happily attached, so there’s really no problem about that. Plus, it’s a one-time dream, which I still can’t figure out how that occurred, but I do know that I’m still in love with my girlfriend & don’t have any crush on her in reality.

Maybe the dream is just to warn me about how dangerous emotions can be, if uncontrolled… be it a sudden urge for a fling or even a raging anger from within.

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