Thank You & Farewell...

After I had sent out e-mails informing the external agencies that I had worked with, that today is my last day... it felt so heartwarming to receive so many replies from my many external contacts, wishing me "All the best"... "May all your dreams come true"... "Keep in touch"... "Here is my mobile number (for those whom I do not yet have their mobile number)"... "This is my personal e-mail"... "It's nice knowing you"... "I am shocked to hear that you are leaving"... "Where are you headed to"... "Man, I am sad that you are leaving"... "Hope our paths will cross again"...

I just lost count of how many people have replied to my "Thanks & Farewell" e-mail. Be it out of politeness, professionalism &/or sincerity... the point is that they bothered to reply to a small fry like me. That says something, isn't it? Not that I am proud... but I am happy! =) I even took the opportunity to right a few working relationships that had soured due to red tape & regulatory policies... & seeing their reply, I am overjoyed to set relationships right again! Indeed, having friendships & relationships mean more to life, than solely money & achievements.

But the most difficult e-mail to type, was to my department. Oh boy, it was tough. Initially, before all these mess had started over the past 2 weeks... I had actually planned & I had even bought vanguard sheets to cut out & write a small note for each of my department colleague, despite the good times & unhappy conflicts that we went through. But in the end, I found myself stuck at what to write in my goodbye e-mail to them.

Suddenly I was stuck... & that was a bad feeling to have... coz these colleagues have been a part of my life... for the newer colleagues like Wilson & Eunice, I had more to say to them... which I am glad & hope to continue to be friends with them. But the irony is that the bonding ought to be stronger as people work together over time, right? But it's so sad that the people that I had worked the longest with in my department, I had the least to say...

Oh well... Here's to a closing of this chapter of my life... I may be called back for 1 day for a 2nd round of audit checks, but other than that, I really have to shed off all these hurts & emotional baggage that I have been carrying with me... & start life afresh in my next job... I have learnt A LOT in this job, no doubt... but it came with a lot of worry, hurt & pain... absolutely no doubt about that too.